October 1st 2024
HEYYY, I am BACK with another blog post becauseee it's time to reflect on my 10 days at uni!! I just want to start off by saying that this uni experience has felt so different, even if the situations are the same, so I'm kinda impressed with myself for putting in the se
its the first week of "intro" lectures, a step up from induction week but still not learning anything really. I've already missed a lecture but I'm not feeling guilty about it because I got sick last week. in terms of my actual lectures and modules however,... I'm interested in the content!! this feels great and I'm looking forward to what i'l be able to actually learn. im also fully reading all of the work on the powerpoint slides and not just copy pasting!! is this what uni is supposed to feel like?
my accommodation this time is nice, kinda small, but nice. I know all my flatmates and me and the girls are quite close which is a change from before. the only bad thing is I don't really feel like I've actually connected with anyone, its not terrible because I talk to my flatmates and my best friend quite often, but I would like to meet more people like me you know.
being at home for those months and just working was such a great time for me and I think I even knew it at the time because my mental health just skyrocketed being there. I kind of wish I was at home, in my bed there, but I know I have to move away at some point and the good part about uni is all of the potential great things that are here. So I'm accepting I can't go home for a while and instead treating my bed here like my bed at home and laying here all day...
nothing has triggered me to become UPSET like it did last year and I'm not hopeless like I was too. I think this is due to a bunch of things: I'm studying a course I actually enjoy so when I think about going to uni, even if I don't make friends, I still have a exciting reason to be here. The uni is also very different to the one I went to before which is so interesting.
for this being my first post at uni, I would like to say that I'm quite content and proud of myself for choosing to go here and choose the course I did. a lot of people try to talk down on me for it but if I enjoy the course I know I'm going to participate In Uni so much more and probably get involved in the things going on here (when im not sick)
so overall I'm having a good time, I hope it stays like that and thanks for reading!!
December 7th 2024
okay so I'm going home for Christmas next week so I think I am officially qualified to be writing my semester 1 debrief. honestly I don't think there's anything to debrief, nothing has happened. BUT the positive side of that is that I've been okay!!! nothing amazingly good or atrociously bad, just okay. and I'm happy with that.
I havent made many friends, less than I had hoped for, but I think it's okay. I met 3 girls this week that I'm gonna live with and we're probably going to sign the contract for a house I viewed today very soon. so technically I've made 3 new "friends" I don't like them all though but maybe I will soon enough. they seem kind. and the house is reallyyyyyy nice so even if we're not friends its chill.
me and my best friend have gotten even closer, I love her so much and just want to gush a little about it because it's been a while since I've been this close with someone and its just good and we get each other and everything okay. I'm just writing whatever because I know no one will read this but yeah I'm happy and feeling satisfied with that friendship. unis really been okay this time around and I'm really happy about that, it feels like I'm finally in the right place.
if anyone somehow found this post and read it, I'm impressed by your patience and dedication and I hope you have a nice day.
anyways, lots of love :)